Post by Chris on Jan 25, 2014 11:26:29 GMT
Okay, so I basically was kicked outta college and really weary and didn't wanna come outta my room I know in the end. I kept e-mailing people cuz I was lonely. They wouldn't respond. Now, everyone, like Ellen DeGeneres, the Superbowl .. can't stop acting cool bringing this up to me, like chosing to hold the Superbowl where 1 friend is from (I just realized with another coincidence,) or posing as the other friend but with the message that it's a punishment and not doing it for anyone else strictly, like a change in the world. I feel made fun of for having fantasies about them. I always felt a nagging at my life by them. I wanna say that I really was feeling bad and that I wasn't out to get them. They didn't say please stop in time|if at all. I also am getting unnecessary feelings of sorry for my cousin. I just want these people outta my life like that. They don't even realize what this is doing to me. They won't talk to me. I mean technically my cousin would, but these friends aren't. I have other cases, as well. Maybe I'd better tell you about it. It'll probably have come up. I was upset at how a girl was bothering me and was upset she was racist, a younger girl in ballet, whose mom was the teacher. She won't talk to me now, neither. Like, she stopped talking to me or something for awhile. I just don't want anyone to try to make me feel guilty for it, like I'm shit.